Affirmation

“A fight is going on inside me," said an old man to his son. "It is a terrible fight between two wolves. One wolf is evil. He is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego. The other wolf is good. he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you." The son thought about it for a minute and then asked, "Which wolf will win?" The old man replied simply, "The one you feed.” - Wendy Mass

-Paisano-

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peace

What's up..

It's taken me a while to get myself together
since i've been out.

I assumed the adjustment period would comprise
of getting used to metal utensils, the absence of an
underlying threat of being sent to solitary confinement
for standing too close to a woman, not having to use
two batteries and a snapped razor to light a cigarette,
being able to lock a door, use fire to cook food instead
of radioactive microwaves, being around animals and
small children,

But it's been a little bit more than that..

Adjusting to my own changes and how they
correlate with the outside world has been a huge task.

Although I don't see myself as being damaged from what
i've been through it has undoubtedly changed my perception
of people and this has caused many issues since i've been out.

Once again i am in a completely new environment,

weighing up what i can and can't control,

what is best for me,

how i can go about putting these things
into practice in the present moment,

Life can be as hard or as easy as i want it to be.

The same applies to you.

The parable of the prodigal son

There was a man who had two sons..

The younger one said to his father, 

"Father, give me my share of the estate" 

So he divided his property between them..
 
Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, 
set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living.  

  After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, 
and he began to be in need.  So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, 
who sent him to his fields to feed pigs.  He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.
 
When he came to his senses, he said, 

"How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you.  I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ So he got up and went to his father.

But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

But the father said to his servants, 

"Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger
and sandals on his feet"

^"Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate^."

  


^" For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found."

So they began to celebrate..
 
Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. 

When he came near the house he heard music and dancing, 
so he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on,

"Your brother has come" he replied, 

"and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound."

The older brother became angry and refused to go in, 
so his father went out and pleaded with him but he answered his father, 

"Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!"

“‘My son, you are always with me, and everything I have is yours.  But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost
and is found.’”

via HURTYOUBAD